Let’s Start at the Root

I’m all about getting to the root of problems and as I learned about chakras it became very clear that this base chakra was seriously blocked.  These days I am constantly, fucking amazed at how everything, I mean EVERYTHING, is connected.  As within, so without has become the basis of my belief system…meaning whatever I feel and think internally, creates my external reality…Law of Attraction, guys.  Right now, I’m at a place where my Root chakra is definitely being worked on…releasing my last cycle, my last fear, my last fucking insecurity and it’s happening with Adam, as well.  Fucking crazy how Twins mirror each other.  All of this awakening and now ascension has me in childlike amazement…anyways, back to the root.

The Root chakra connects us to Gaia, or Mother Earth (whichever you prefer, you know my feelings on labels).  It grounds us and when it is in it’s perfect spinning place we feel safe, secure, centered and happy with life.  When it’s blocked…fearful, unsure and may experience financial instability.  Safety, stability…what does that look like?  It seems to me that for most it is repeating the same cycles, over and over, always knowing there’s more, but never having the balls to take the leap.  Everyone close to me does it, every damn day, me included…well, not anymore except this one last thing.  I’ve been guided for months now to start a YouTube channel to share messages with the Twin Flame and Lightworker collective and I have such a fear of coming out of the “Spiritual Closet” and the guidance I receive is sometimes just fucking overwhelming.  The channel is set up and ready to go, yet I find myself stuck, letting fear take over & I fucking hate it, drives me insane.  But, don’t we all do that…get some inspired idea, find a way not to follow it and then kick ourselves afterwards?  That, my loves, is Ego kicking in and blocking your Root chakra…tricking you into thinking quitting that job, dating that person, starting that project is a bad fucking idea.  We believe it and go on with our fine, yet unfulfilled lives, thinking this is what’s safe.

Women have a lot of blockages in the Root that goes back through generations, through centuries of Patriarchal bullshit, that has left us with ancient wounds.  It seems to me, ladies, that we all have been taught that safety and security comes from the men.  How in the world can we expect to feel safe and secure when we have to trust it from someone else…the same someone’s that abuse and disempower us, but yet we have been programmed to believe just that.  Just last week my parents told me hopefully I find a rich man to help me with my financial struggles…WTF??? Let me get this straight, my own parents don’t believe that I am capable of financial success on my own and to make it worse it is simply because I AM A WOMAN…sweet baby jesus, this shit has got to stop!! After getting off the phone and reflecting, it hit me…I had always believed that I needed 2 incomes, a man with a better paying job because I was raised that way…let’s just say, that belief system was released ASAP, get to steppin’ bitch.  That’s what motivated me to get the channel set up and started.  I was feeling great last Thursday, did the video on the FB page and was working on the set up on YouTube.

Chakras can be overactive, as well.  Overactive chakras manifest in the behaviors we are most used to seeing in each other…that damn Ego again.  An overactive Root chakra will manifest greed, materialistic, a lust for power and cynicism…sound like anyone you know?  A few people definitely came to mind, including my person…kind of makes me sick to my stomach to say that, but truth is truth.  Last fall, things were going pretty well with us, then I retired from my 15 year career as a teacher…talk about taking a leap of faith!  He said something in a text yesterday that took me back to me telling him I had left teaching and I realized that things between us had changed when I did that. I had threatened his sense of security and he began, once again, to pull away from me.  For me, leaving teaching was a no brainer, I knew it was time.  Never once, through 15 years of teaching, was I ever near financial security…which is what security means to most of us, is is not?  In the text, he told me he was talking to someone and she was a good woman and safe for him because of his career and lifestyle.  It was the word safe that triggered me making these connections.  Instantly, I knew safe for him meant repeating the same unfulfilling relationships with women who didn’t challenge this safe and secure worked he has worked so hard to create.  Women who are okay with emotional constipation, so he doesn’t have to deal with feeling deeply for anyone. Women he doesn’t love.  Breaks my fucking heart, but he has his lessons to learn and they are coming.  Me, I have to break through my own safe little cocoon I have built around myself during my awakening.  Now that it is over, it is time to spread these motherfucking wings.

Each time I do a meditation to remove chakra blockages, I say affirmations as I direct breath to each location.  The affirmations for the Root Chakra begin with  “I am…” and “I have…”.  Sometimes that’s all I say, ” I am, I have:.  Other times I fill in the blank.  “I am safe.  I have financial security.”  I think you get the idea.  Salt baths are another awesome way to clear blockages , as they release toxins, cleanse low vibrations and ground you to Gaia. As an Empath, I do grounding practices daily.  Mediations, yoga, baths and just going outside for 10 minutes can do the trick. The truth is, there is absolutely NOTHING external that can give you safety and security, because nothing is fixed.  Change is the only constant.  Through experience, I have learned the more you resist your gut, your intuition, the vibes…the worse it gets, until the universe makes you so fucking uncomfortable change is all you can do.  Yes, it is so fucking terrifying sometimes, but staying stuck in a place with people who are holding you back from living the life you dream of, the life you deserve is so much worse.  Off to video myself…

Peace, Love and Light Beautiful Souls


P.S.  A healthy Root Chakra is essential in manifestation…something I’l go more into soon.

Let Shift Happen

This year has been an incredible, sometimes painful, transformation of self.  I admit I have spent my adult life ignoring the signs the universe was giving me, I feel a lot of us have.  For me, there was no option…do you ever feel like the same shit keeps happening over and over?  The same shitty people in your life, just different faces?  I sure did.  That was definitely my thinking at the beginning of 2017.  The other big question I kept asking myself was…Why me? Why did all this shit keep happening to me?  The first question would be answered in April, when I was guided to Abraham Hicks & the Laws of Attraction.

After listening to Abraham a few times, it hit me…everything is energy.  I have to admit, being raised a Catholic, this was a huge belief system shock.  Even as a child, religion did not make sense to me, I never felt connected with it.  Don’t get me wrong, there are beautiful aspects to all religions, but I’ve always felt Love is the true religion and we don’t need any of the rules created by religious organizations.  The combination of Science & Spirituality really, deeply resonated with me.  For the first time in my life, the Universe began to make sense.  So…The same shitty events with the same shitty people were my fault.  My energy was attracting the shit! By letting ego take the driver’s seat of my life, by living in the confines of fear & insecurity, how I felt about myself was manifesting externally.  Holy shit!!  This BS needed to change.  However, change is NOT easy, looking honestly at oneself is fucking tough and I was deeply saddened by what I saw.   I understood in that moment that if I wanted the life of my dreams, I had to shift my thinking…shift from Ego to Soul.

Since then, the shift from Ego to Soul has been profound. Ego is the mask we use to hide our fears and insecurities.  Ego not only blocks us from recieving all the abundance we deserve, it stops us from being our true selves.  Dissolving ego takes patience and practice. We have been so deeply programmed, by people & society, to let Ego run our lives we don’t even know it’s happening.  I love this graphic of Ego vs. Soul based thinking….

Be attached with the detached; EGO is not your identity.

Any of that sound familiar?  I began to accept the fact that I had been living from Ego (with a little soul here and there) my entire adult life and I was sick and fucking tired of it.  I began to instill daily practices that helped me shift…gratitude, self affirmations, focused breathing, reading & studying chakras and all things spiritual,  meditation, yoga and journaling.  I did NOT do these all at once (posts on each one are upcoming), they were gradual, but each profound in shifting perspective, in rediscovering my authentic goddess.

We live in an Ego based society, clearly…look at who represents us all as Americans (definitely more on that another day).  I can feel the collective energy wanting change, but we must understand that we cannot change others. The changes we seek must forst come within.  Those changes can only come from healing ourselves.  As our energy rises, the energy around us will rise as well.  That’s how vibrations work, my loves.  It is why we must focus on self…self-healing, self-care that leads to unconditional love of self.  We must see that every one of us is a perfect soul having an imperfect human experience.  As woman, we must rise into our goddess power to affect the change we want to see.

Peace, Love & Light Beautiful Souls


Goddess Unleashed

P.S.  This is your daily reminder that YOU ARE A FUCKING GODDESS…OWN THAT SHIT!!